Give yourself permission not to be not good at something. To write messy and imperfect words. To kiss the boy in the bar for no reason other than you want to. To let your legs shake during yoga. To take up space and feel totally feminine--whatever that means for you. Stand up straight. Make lists of tangible things for when you need something to hang on to: 1. Wash the sheets. 2. Wipe the counter. 3. Grind the coffee beans. 4. Knead the bread. Quietly and softly carve out a life on your own terms. Stop apologizing. Forgive that sometimes things take a while. Forgive the low-level, near-constant fear. Celebrate the small successes. Perhaps joy is its own body of water, wade out into it.